Hello All, this blog is more aimed at women of today and what i think? I will probably read it back and think it is slightly pointless and makes no sense, but lets just roll with it.
This weekend has been hectic with work, i have dealt with the arses that are the general public; so customers and also not forgetting this big arses of all... Managers. These two types of people over the space of 24 hours have knocked my confidence to a state i didn't even realise. To boost my confidence and make myself feel a little better i decided to dye my hair back to my natural colour - dark brown. I did this, looked in the mirror and thought 'wow, i look normal' (I haven't been 'normal' in appearance, attitude, confidence for a veryy long time... NO, scrap that... i don't think i have ever been 'normal'), i pulled up my hair, made a thousand faces at the shiny thing on the wall (mirror) and made my make up. I still didn't feel comfortable or confident, so i thought i'd jump in the bath and try and forget the whole weekend. As i was getting undressed i looked in the mirror once more and i suddenly had a surge of confidence relate back into my body. It was amazing, and thinking about it i feel everyone should feel confident in their own skin and shouldn't try and mask in with clothes to give off a 'fake' confidence.
Even if you are a plus size, black, white, purple, hairy, ANYTHING everyone should feel confident in their own skin... the only way this can be truly achieved is to come to a state where you are happy in yourself... your state of life (relationship status, job, housing even if **comparing it to someone else you still end up happy), and secondly to begin believing no matter what happens, you are an individual... no one else is the same, no one has the same skin markings as you and that individuality is the thing that makes you beautiful and think beautiful things and believe in the beauty of others. By believing in these you then begin to exert confidence...
And this is the state i have reached, and it's amazing. I have changed a lot in my life, and at the time (even though i never regret) i was unsure if it was right or wrong i can look back and realise the shitters that have happened have clearly worked out for the best and this is one thing i need to always remember at the time, that even though it doesn't seem all happy and dandy it will always mould you into being a better happier person. However, you have to be able to 'see the light at the end of the tunnel' (CHEESY) and not focus on all the negative thoughts and energy otherwise others close to you will absorb this and only show negative energy when you are around even if it's not fully direct.
Thanks, as always.. feel free to comment :D
** don't ever compare yourself to anyone, they are a different person to you they don't think the same as you, believe the same as you and therefore just because a tangible object is something you compare to you own tangible objects doesn't mean it will work out for you like it did for them.
